I just finished getting my grade from my first course, and boy I was so grateful I passed by 4 points! Just as we are now officially in Autumn and seasons change, plans change as well. The Lord allows us to take a step back and take a good look around us to see that we are on the right path. Our Father in Heaven is such a good God that He at times allows us to see what we thought was a good thing for us, as a “not really”, by allowing us to experience first hand the things we asked for. For example, I thought I was supposed to someday complete my doctoral degree, a great idea, right? Wrong!
God had to allow me to get back into the university to see how crazy I was just thinking about it. First of all, the online piece was the worst I had ever taken. Very cold course, with no motivation to continue on. Second, all we did was write as “busy work” instead of writing to learn. Thirdly, I had to stretch myself out so thin, I almost fell into depression due to lack of sleep, eating, and no social interaction. To be honest, had it not been for the Lord, I would have not made it. All the stress of opening up a new business, renovating the place, and school just took its toll. After all, the Lord is a God of mercy and grace. I feel that He allowed me to go through it so I can finally believe, I didn’t need it. If I could get all my assignments done on time, and still do everything I needed to, I was OK.
I have said all this to say, don’t place yourself in so much stuff that later you regret it. I know we can’t be in regrets but the truth is, we get ourselves in sticky situations, and then wonder why we are in the sticky situation we are in. I hope this makes sense to someone out there because I sure know I’m never going back to school. God taught me a good lesson, and that is, not all open doors are meant for us to walk through. So far, so good, but I know the next time I might stumble and fall.
If this is you today, and you’re in a bad place you yourself have put you in, my advice to you is to stick with it and finish whatever it is. Even if you fail at it, at least you can learn a lesson from it, that in itself can be a positive thing, no matter the outcome. May the Lord give you wisdom and understanding, and may you learn where your limitations lay so that in the future, you can choose your activities or relationships more wisely that now.
“Pain make man think, think make man wise, and wisdom make life more endurable”…The Teahouse of August Moon (1945) Marlon Brando as “Sakini”